On March, 4. 2009 i Lost my best friend to suicide.
she was ONLY 15..
She WAS & still is a BIG part of my life
She is one OF a kind. & someone i could never forget.</3
Kerry I love yu soo much, it hurts just to look at your pictures. BUT im holding on.for yu.
This Blog is for yu Kerry.<3
A poem for Kerry
Forever 15
My time has come,
& so i'm gone
too a better place far beyond.
i Love you too much to see you cry
& it hurts me to say good-bye
so all i can say are these three words.
.iLoveyou.
i never really thought about death.
i'v thought about how much pain it would cause a person.
.....i wonder how much pain you have to feel,
how many tears you have to cry,
how many trys of overdosing,
how many hart breaking memories, that replay in ur mind.
not feeling enough love.
Everyday i look at ur pictures, && wonder. why.
&& could i of stoped you.
talked you out of it,
could i prevented it?
anything?
Everyday those questions run thou my head.
Butt Kerry im not mad, im just happy for yu..i guess.
I hope all ur pain is gone.
and ur having all the fun,
in ur new heaven.
iLoveyou kerry.
&& i miss you more than i can explain. On Wednesday march 4th,
Kerry decided she didn't want to reside with us on this earth.
She Hung Herself...Group Home staff found her 45 mins after she had Hung herself...
She still had a pulse, BUT faint.
She was RUSHED to CHEO hospital
& put on Life support for about 5 hours.
They decided to pull the plug.
& then she was gone.
she passed away around 2 am.
Even though she is not here with us,
she is in our harts.
&& is probably watching over a lot of special people.
Kerry was one of a kind.
But we should not be mad.
we should be happy.
now that she has no more pain & she is resting in peace.
I never been so close to someone before.
& i only knew her for 9 months &&
it feels like i knew her for a life time.
&& every time i think of screwing up,
i think of kerry,
she was a FIGHTER.
she always knew a way though everything.
&& Kerry i'm sorry.
Because i would never of Went back home,
i wouldn't of been where i am now.
&& just MABEY.
you would of woke me up at some CRAZY time in the night just
to talk.
cuz you'r the ONLY one i will get up at 3 or 4 or 5 in the morring. just to talk.
&& people say god dose things for a reason.
&& everything happens for a reason,
well what was the reason for him letting you in.
cuz it WASN"T your time to go.
you had YOU'R whole life ahead of you.
well,
i don't see a reason.
all it did was cause pain for people.
&& now,
do i believe in God?
no.
i only have one god now.
Kerry Ranney.
she has done some wild things.
so now its YOU"R tun to shine Kerry.
so SHINE like
no other star has shined before.
&& when i look up && see that BRIGHT star,
ill think of you.
&& when i wear my yellow bandanna i will shine with yu.
cuz it feels like you'r right beside me agin,
SCREAMING, "pass me something."
lol
you were always screaming for something....
:'(
i miss you so much kerry...
&& going to my first funeral, && having it be my best friend,
it was beautiful..........
&& Celeste is your reading this,.
thank-you for being their.
i never felt soo scared, to the point i was shaking.
&& thank-you
Celeste.
iLoveyou<3
All of the people that has helped me.
&& thank-you to the group home.
for teaching me A LOT of lessons.
lol
even when i didn't want to learn them.
lol
iLove you Kerry,
<3<3
xoxoxoxo
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